Perhaps the most candid and heartfelt interview with Nicole Kidman was posted yesterday on the women's portal The Cut. Talking about his own demons and the difficulties of growing up, Kidman surprisingly accurately falls into the pro-feminist mood of the second decade of June. Her words about the painful sensitivity of many women to criticism from the outside and the requirements of the environment, about the difficulties of self-acceptance, inability to trust their own desires and overcoming prejudices sound like an echo of the confessions of Maggie Gyllenhaal, who received a rather rude and unprofessional response from the casting director of the new film about Bond.
- I was a living metaphor for what does not allow a woman to go forward, to develop, - Kidman admits to reporters. “The worst enemy of my youth was myself. I tortured myself in a way that no one else could. As a teenager, I was quite tall for my age, but I was afraid of my own possibilities. She believed that my height rather scares people, inspires a threat. The desire to be less than nature intended - literally and figuratively - is sad in itself. Accepting the world as it is is much more difficult if you are busy fighting with yourself. I worked a lot on this and my work is not complete.
Seeing the words about frankness and fears in the title, you usually count on completely different confessions. And when you look at the author of these words, against your will, you doubt the veracity of the whole story. Imagining Nicole Kidman as a notorious teenager poisoning herself will take a lot of fantasy.
For most fans, she is more of a beautiful marble statue, a demigod rather than an earthly woman. The glory of Nicole Kidman is too dazzling. The halo of a beauty and an idol overshadows in her a person who can feel and experience. To accept her weak, difficult, vulnerable is to destroy a beautiful comfortable image.
“Women are still too sensitive to the inner censor,” Kidman continues, “all the time they are required to keep within the framework of some“acceptable”behavior. The man simply says, "I want it," and then he goes and gets what he wants. A woman is accustomed to ask: "Do I want this? Maybe I don't want to? Did I deserve it? Can I get it? Hmm, what do you think?" Forced whirling according to this scheme makes a woman unsure of her decisions, teaches her to ignore and deny her desires, remaining within the framework of what she does not believe is safe and correct. I don't regret much. I'm just trying to live differently. But I regret every decision I made out of fear. Not their fear of being weak, but fear of their own capabilities.